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Saturday, August 1, 2009


I know what Omega is doing when he gives me my daily assignments. I get it. He uses them to open discussions because I don't like to talk about how I feel. I don't like talking about my broken feelings or frustrations to be specific. I don't understand why I can write about them, sometimes I don't even plan on it. I'll plan to write about how great everything is and then it will change into something dark.

He validates it, telling me it's normal to have those feelings. I love him for being so understanding. He is my guide and I trust him completely.

I just wish the progress would happen faster, which explains the title, "bleh."


  1. must be going around... i've got the weekend blues.


  2. ok enough this weekend is my birthday and I expect as my present everyone to snap out of it. It is the middle of summer the roses are out... go smell them.

  3. I could not agree more. Happy Birthday J!

  4. Mouse, I am right there with you on being able to write things out even if I can't speak them. I don't know why this is. Perhaps writing it means less then speaking it and speaking it is so... final, like it is now out there and can't be changed or taken back. I don't know, but I do know that there are a million things I can write about (dealing with feelings and such) but not much that actually makes it out of my mouth.

  5. Alice,

    Yes, I often find it easier to open a discussion through my words or thoughts in my blog rather than stammering through it.

    Omega has even made me talk to him on the phone a few times because it's even easier to say things that are difficult to express.



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