Frustration

I sat at the computer for an hour before throwing my reading glasses down in total frustration. I sighed loudly and hit the table with my fist. Omega who was reading looked up and asked me what the matter was. I explained the problem and he said nothing because there was nothing he could do. It was me. I tried again. I failed and sighed this time with resignation. I was beaten and was nearly ready to give up. Still I tried again and with the same result. Again, I threw my reading glass down in disgust. This time however, Omega got a little stern with me, simply saying, "mouse."

Immediately I lowered my eyes. Picked up my reading glasses and attempted again. Maybe I was too frustrated, growing angry and just getting annoyed with this thing. I also couldn't let it go. I hit the computer table again, though I tried to stop myself and let out a heavy sigh. Omega then said, "Get up NOW and take a walk."

I started to protest but I didn't. He was right, I needed a break. I wasn't going to accomplish anything with my mood the way it was. I went for a short walk and returned. I started for the computer again, but Omega stopped me and told me to go upstairs and put on my cotton nightgown. I protested like a child over that because it wasn't near my bedtime. He didn't raise his voice but just calmly repeated the command. I went upstairs and did as I was told. Put on my nightgown and returned downstairs. He looked at me for a minute before telling me to lift the bottom and kneel at his feet.

I was beyond annoyed by this because I just wanted to finish my work so I could relax. But I did as I was told and knelt at his feet. He talked to me and I listened.

Then he told me if I could remain calm I could return to work at the computer. I smiled and thanked him (thanking Master is always important) and returned to the computer. I don't know if it was just being forced to take a break or what but the work just fell into place. I found the files I needed (I knew I had loaded them) and completed everything in 10 minutes. I logged off and knelt again at Omega's feet.

I was relieved to have finished working. He told me to sit beside him on the sofa, and I did. He asked me not talk about anything and not to move. I quickly became a shivering mess. Then he stopped almost abruptly and walked upstairs. Naturally I followed. It was late but he didn't seem to mind it. Soon I was quivering and begging for more. I was starting know what it felt like to be balanced.

After I rested with my head on his chest, and the sound of his heart beating lulling me to sleep.