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Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Clarifications

Omega came to me today and asked me if the violet wand for now should be considered a limit. I looked at him and smiled asking why and he said that keep saying how much I hate in my blog.

I thought about that and decided that I needed to clarify something

  • I don't hate the violet wand (most of the time)
  • I don't make a habit of topping from the bottom
  • Omega is a wonderful and patient Master
  • I think I got a little confused in my Topping from the Bottom post and the TPE one...I don't think that by not telling Omega about my past I was topping him from the bottom as so much as I was really at that moment afraid driven by unreasonable fear to self protect. I believed that by telling him I was in serious danger of losing everything I had. Topping from the bottom and real self-protection are totally different things. A very big thanks to selkie for helping me realize this.

14 comments:

  1. mouse,

    I did not realize my wonderfulness and patience was ever in question.

    Omega

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  2. Just being a smidge proactive Master.

    yours

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  3. Proactive mouse?

    The word is actually smidgen not "smidge."

    Are you anticipating that I will seem not nearly as wonderful or patient in the near future?

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  4. grins at repartee...actually Omega Sir I always thought that a "smidge" was simply a smaller portion of a "smidgeon"... LOL

    mouse, thank you for the compliment - and surprised LOL as I know I sometimes wax on - somewhat like a virtual stream of consciousness... what I love about the internet cafe is the chance to return to my youth and the simple joy of being able to let your mind expand, to find other words that inspire and provoke thought and the sensuous deilight of intellectual sparring.

    I get so much satisfaction from reading people like you

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  5. Greetings mouse,

    Personally i love the violet wand, although it typically sends me into laughing fits. Yep, even at it's max setting i find it tickles more then anything. Now, Master taser or cattle prod...those get my attention fast!

    Peace and love,
    slave isabelle owned and collared by Sir Rick

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  6. The words "self protect" has had me thinking, how can a slave keep this from her Master? Isn't it His body mind and soul, the fact you are called a slave to me means you have given up the self protection and to place trust in the hands of your Master, a slave might hope that He will see you but then trust that He loves His slave enough to care for her as a valued girl. My Master would never accept the term "self protect" I know, but that is what I feel is so special, He controls me, all of me and I offer no resistance to Him, for he is my true Master. I know He would see this as bratty behavior on my part and a excuse for having a limit. Just my thoughts. I love how our blogs and ideas makes us all think and examine this wonderful lifestyle.

    hugs,
    ~briseis~

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  7. My wonderful Master Omega,

    As we discussed last evening I am in a period of struggle as you are rightfully assuming more control over my daily life and I love it. However it also causes me to not balk but just ponder the ramifications, and reconcile somewhat the past with the present. I know you get it and I trust you completely.

    yours

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  8. selkie,

    You are a gem! You really got me thinking and since I'm fairly thick in the head that is no small accomplishment. LOL I appreciate your blog and your comments here.

    slave isabelle,

    For the most part I love the violet wand, but I don't like it coupled with internal probes....I can't explain how painful it is. However when he just uses it I for the most part have no issue and kinda enjoy the rake attachment.

    mouse

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  9. briseis,

    I am working on a post instead of just replying here...So I haven't forgotten or left you out.

    mouse

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  10. oh mouse no worries honestly. i often feel a comment sometimes warrants a blog response, and many times i take a question to my Master for us to discuss before i go and just comment. so i understand completely...and sometimes no answer can be found. no response to one of my comments is not seen as anything disrespectful, many times its just me pondering aloud.
    thank you though for following through with a response,

    ~briseis~

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  11. I try to caution myself with blogging turning into topping-from-the-bottom too. I am, by nature, manipulative and I often find myself doing so without even realizing I am doing it. For awhile, I put myself on a rule of not even making any suggestions at all, and allow all direction come from my wife. That spell helped and now I think I have a better handle on my TFTB issues.

    I could really relate to your feelings here.

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  12. I was going to leave this, but find I can't. Briseis, with all due respect, you are clearly showing your lack of experience and your own naievity in most of the statements I see you make.

    YOu are also setting yourself up for some hard lessons because you seem reluctant to step back and comprehend that people with FAR more experience than you and insight into the nuance, intensity, bad and good of the lifestyle might have something to say.

    I realize that you are in the first flush and that it is always exciting, but the reality is that EVERY single person must have mechanism in place to self-protect. The reality is that your master is NOT all-knowing, all-seeing, all-perfect - not one human being IS.

    That being the case, then both of you need to realize that every relationship -and a Master/slave, when all is said and done, IS a relationship, requires give and take, mistakes will be made, understandings and misundestandings occur - and no matter how rosy a picture is painted, there is always an undertone to the colours.

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  13. Mouse, please deliver this request to Omega. I have some questions regarding the self protect blog entry, and of course he has turned off the comments capability. I tried to email him but am told by my computer that I need to use something called outlook to email him. I'm not particularly computer literate, and am unsure how to enable outlook. Or for that matter that it is even loaded on the machine. I have created a new, disposable email address citydump20@gmail.com. If he could contact me there directly so that we could discuss things I would appreciate it. Just for the record, I agree with most of what you said and accept that our opinions simply differ on the rest. I do not wish to challenge any aspect of your opinion or his, but I would like to understand a couple of things about the relationship you two share better. Thank you.

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  14. nunya,

    I have sent you an email. Look forward to hearing from you.

    Omega

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