I thought about that and decided that I needed to clarify something
- I don't hate the violet wand (most of the time)
- I don't make a habit of topping from the bottom
- Omega is a wonderful and patient Master
- I think I got a little confused in my Topping from the Bottom post and the TPE one...I don't think that by not telling Omega about my past I was topping him from the bottom as so much as I was really at that moment afraid driven by unreasonable fear to self protect. I believed that by telling him I was in serious danger of losing everything I had. Topping from the bottom and real self-protection are totally different things. A very big thanks to selkie for helping me realize this.