Asking

Why is it that mouse has a horrible time asking for help? It probably stems back from childhood and not being able to rely on anyone. It's just too difficult at least for mouse. It's like admitting defeat or failure. 

Sharing all the distinct and varied reasons for this was hard for mouse. What would Daddy think? Would he be upset? Angry? No -- for mouse it's easier to hide that all behind an air of competence. A cheery, "of course!" A lesson she learned in childhood and on the school yard. The stronger ones pick - off the weaker ones. It's survival of the fittest or the meanest. It's why animals guard and don't show injury.

Maybe it's just wired into our DNA and a throwback to our prehistoric ancestry. Like wisdom teeth.

It doesn't seem to matter what it is either.

It seems that it's connected in some ways to how mouse often feels she's not worthy of Daddy's love and lots of other things. Daddy always reminds mouse that she is. But it's not that easy. He reassures mouse all the time and she wants to believe him and mostly does. There's just this part or fear that might get inside her. It does get inside.  Maybe this is a distant rumble due to the punishment last weekend?  

What mouse admires most is that Daddy is so strong and has no issues asking or demanding what he wants and there are times that mouse really wishes she could channel that because it's hard to admit sometimes that her needs aren't being met.

Of course, Daddy knows all about this. He's working to help mouse and she appreciates it -- we talk about and mouse sometimes cries over it.  There's just no easy solution or way to change this.  Talking about it helps.  His support and guidance is unbelievable and wonderful.