Our Love is Different

Our love is different dear
It's like a mighty symphony
I can feel it's silver harmony
Oh so tenderly day by day
                        -- Billie Holiday

We watched the first few episodes of The Handmaiden's Tale and so far we both aren't sure about this show. There were parts that mouse found almost comforting and disturbing. Women in domestic roles doesn't bother mouse, but the other women in precarious power positions did bother her. No spoilers, but it is interesting but Master isn't sure He wants to continue watching it, we'll see what He decides.

In other far less interesting news, mouse has begun spring cleaning. It's been sorta fun digging into the corners to see what's there. Finding some long forgotten things. Lots of stuff going to charity. We're also trying to reduce our plastic use, which is difficult. Buying more things in bulk, but even then they provide plastic baggies for herbs and such. Need to find something else to use, which isn't easy. We do now have reusable bags for produce, which are wonderful, but we don't think those would work too well for bulk flour and other similar food stuffs like that. Bulk items are also less expensive another bonus. You still need something to put it in.

Finally, Master has given mouse permission to do a little clothes shopping, of course, she needs to remain mindful of His rules for clothing. One skirt must hobble her, and the shoes must be heels. He would also like her to get some cleaning appropriate clothing (something easily laundered), and a selection of aprons for various tasks.

Being punished for anything is distressful but the correction seemed to have worked as mouse has been far more mindful of her place since that. Master is wary, as to be expected, because He knows mouse too well. However last Thursday He did remark that there was improvement. Master doesn't expect perfection -- He knows that mouse is human (He's also aware that so is He), but He will no longer tolerate a disrespectful slave. Several times that week, mouse forgot her place and became very terse with Him (as well as our offspring). He does expect for mouse to try to reign in her mouth. That week she hadn't done that. The first time she mouthed off He hadn't said anything about it, so the second time and subsequent times mouse was quick to slide into that pattern. Each time feeling somewhat emboldened by His silence, the blowups (If you can call it that) were worse as time passed.Too easily triggered by stuff that she should have taken in the stride but reacted by being defensive or argumentative. His silence that early on was meant as forgiveness, became more of a test for mouse to see if she could realize the pattern she was slipping into. Obviously she failed and since this has been a problem in the past, Master felt the punishment needed to painful but certainly not as painful as He could have made it.

The correction during the previous week has certainly given mouse much to consider. Master also, doesn't want mouse to willfully step over a line and apologize for it, only to repeat that again -- that's a manipulation of His good will. A couple times last week, mouse again knelt on the floor and kissed His feet expressing her remorse for what she had done in the week before. It wasn't to manipulate Him, it was simply as the week wore on, she had kept a civil tongue, and realized how petty and arrogant she had behaved the previous week and promised to do better. Instead of simply worrying,  recycling the punishment or forgetting about it all together once the pain faded, mouse took a mental inventory.