The Way It Is

Some things will never change...

There's been a need to discuss something (or maybe confess?) about how punishments are handled today. Some might think mouse is just so perfect there's never a need to punish her -- well, they'd be totally wrong. If anything punishments or corrections are even more frequent since Master retired. Maybe He just notices when mouse has misbehaved, or perhaps He always knew but since He wasn't around let certain things slide? Honestly, she cannot say. What she can say is that He's even more exacting than ever. He wants things done His way. Some of this is because now with us living out in far more rural area there's more need to be organized. One thing about Master, He wastes nothing, not a step or even word.  

Some might recall in 2019, when mouse had the appendicitis and was in a coma, one small gift Master was exceptionally grateful for was that He hadn't marked the slave. Life can go sideways at a moment's notice, so He vowed to never mark the slave. However, there are times when He feels it necessary to inflict a more direct punishment, it's equally amazing how He can inflict pain without leaving a lasting mark. Most of the time anyway. Occasionally, He will leave a mark (or marks) behind and in that case mouse understands this means she will NOT under any circumstance be allowed to leave the home, cook, do any cleaning that involves ladders or anything that might cause an injury. Mostly she's to sit, she might be allowed some light exercise under His supervision but the slave isn't allowed to handle anything sharp. 

Now, lets be clear, for the most part, mouse rarely cuts herself while cooking (or burns herself) but Master doesn't want to take any chances so if her infraction was so great that it required say the cane then her punishment continues until the marks fade (usually a few days).  During those times, she is meant to suffer in silence and be extra attentive to Master. He might use her for His own gratification, but not for her enjoyment or pleasure. 

Punishments affect her deeply, probably since they're really about failures, specifically her failure to be slave she knows He expects her to be. The slave He knows she can be. Since we have no designated area to delve out punishments His bedroom (the Master bedroom) became the place where those take place. Discreetly placed heavy gage eye hooks remind her of transgressions. In that Master bedroom, like a dungeon mouse isn't allowed to speak anymore. Or wear clothing, which must be removed upon entry (even if she's only there to make the bed, or clean the attached bathroom). He has a camera installed to make sure that mouse follows that simple rule. Master has a home theater type thing with surround sound which does mask out sounds but He expects slave to be as quiet as a mouse. He will gag her for serious punishments, but otherwise she's simply expected to keep quiet. The bed is His, and if He chooses He can invite mouse to join Him. Except after punishments, then she is expected to sleep on the floor beside the bed.  

Well, then there's punishments where a mark is left behind, then she's not allowed to be in His presence at all.  In years past she might have been caged, but now she's simply not allowed in the bedroom at all, except for brief supervised moments. Good girls get to sleep in Master's room, bad girls do not. Taking Himself away from her has a profound effect on her, usually sending her in a spiral of depression. That whole period she knows she's unworthy. Nothing will change that except time. That time can stretch out as long as Master wishes too.  He controls that.  Master knows how long a mark will last, most last a day or two, deeper ones can last a week or even more. 

The punishments can be stacked, depending on time or if it's something she is fully aware is fucking wrong. Like leaving the house without a detailed shopping list, creating a working menu, or a failure in housekeeping duties  Or forgetting her cellphone if she's out on her own -- that's the worst ever.  None of this happens often but when she does it sends her into a panic. He expects a text message when she arrives at the destination and again before she leaves. He knows in advance the route she will take and how long it should take. When He's with her (which is often these days), she doesn't need to worry as much, except that the list is ON HER PHONE. So leaving the house then, without a list, knowing fully well shopping is involved and trying to "wing it" isn't acceptable. Even if she does remember everything she will be punished.  He will never punish her if we decide to just pop into a store to pick up something like for dinner or whatever. He's not unreasonable. 

Small infractions can just mean corner time, larger ones can mean corner time and she's expected to hold a coin with her nose and stand perfectly still so that the coin doesn't drop.  He doesn't need to be punished with her for that since He has a camera installed that might or might not be motion activated. Those are things she's not allowed to ask about. He will never answer a question He finds inappropriate. No, bad punishments are when she knows she's screwed up big time and for some stupid reason decides that she doesn't care. The truth is that she does care and hates to fall short in her slavery and hates herself every time she does. Suffering through the punishment period is very hard both mentally and physically. 

A lie of any kind is fast way to get punished, even a gentle lie is very bad in His eyes. Now, if she planned a special thing for His birthday, or is for Him, He won't ask details to ruin a surprise (unless He's unsure He'd like the surprise) but He expects the slave to answer Him honestly. He won't ask questions about Amazon boxes that arrive around holiday time (He could look at the account if He wanted to and probably does). We do actively discuss what we are buying, how much we expect to spend and other things that are common to every couple. 

He tracks just about every aspect of our life together, He knows exactly how many minutes she spends exercising, He knows how long it'll take type this post, how much time she watches videos on TikTok (cooking and cleaning stuff is all she's allowed -- or maybe a cute dog or cat video) anything political is strictly forbidden. Actually that's the only social media she's allowed, only to watch, like and save videos other's create -- He doesn't allow her to leave a comment. He's just as protective as He's always been. In some ways even more so -- in other ways not. 

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We had planned to meet that other couple we know, but it didn't work out. Instead we had to attend a funeral for friend of Master. The death wasn't unexpected and cancer sucks -- we just didn't know when. So when the call came we were both unsurprised and yet disappointed the one time we had made plans...

Meh, what can you do? He called right away and they "met" virtually to talk but that was it.  Instead Master booked a hotel and we all traveled for the funeral (our kids and their kids are friends). We expressed our condolences, offered whatever comfort we could and drove back home still in our funeral attire.  It was probably for the best we didn't get to go since it probably would have only served to remind mouse how different our lives are and caused a small pang of jealousy (or maybe regret?). 

Our Thanksgiving was good and our home filled with family and close friends, we broke bread, laughed and reminisced and we suppose it's how it should be. 

We hope your holiday finds you warm, healthy and abundantly happy!