Not a creature was stirring...

The dog and I were dead to the world when Master got home late last night.  I don't think he minds so very much being on his own at times.  I did however, feel him climb into bed and slip between the sheets, instinctively I reached for him and this time my efforts were not thwarted.  He gathered me up into his arms and pulled me close.  I was in a period of twilight, not really awake, but not full asleep either.  I felt his breath on my neck, and his lips graze the slope.  Unconsciously I shivered and turned my head searching his lips.  We kissed tenderly at first, and then with more passion, a passion I hadn't felt in a while from him.  It was mutual and very hot, as I felt his weight climbing on top of me, and forcing himself inside me with a soft moan escaped my lips.  We moved together in concert, our bodies at first doing a slow grind but soon filled with lust, started crashing.  We shook and trembled as our bodies collided and our souls screamed into the silence of the cool night.  


Gasping and thrusting we slowed our momentum and slowly stopped, remaining joined our bodies not yet willing to let go.  Our breath hanging heavy in the stillness of the room, until the moment where out bodies trembled and I felt him explode inside me.  I closed my eyes inhaling sharply the scent of our bodies lingering.  


This was a moment to be savored and not quickly forgotten.


He moved himself off of me, and held my body close to his, as I whispered how badly he'd been missed by me.  He only said he understood but kissed my forehead in a very reassuring way. 


I held onto him throughout the remaining night, and in the morning vaguely aware of the alarm, was hesitant to leave his side.  What if the sweet bliss I felt the night (or early morning) had diminished somehow and was forgotten by him? What if he pushed me away again?  Could I handle it?  


In that moment, I felt his hand caressing me and a firm swat on my rear with a familiar voice saying, "don't forget."  I scrambled at once under the covers and took him deeply inside my mouth working him from the base to tip and him undulating under me, finally grabbing my head and guiding me up and down his length.  After completing himself, he then pulled me up for a quick kiss on the forehead, and a familiar swat on the rear saying, "Better hurry mouse, I want coffee and the newspaper before I shower for work.  Hurry now mouse, don't keep me waiting..." 


"Yes Master."  Was all I could reply as I scurried out of the room.  


When I carried in his coffee and paper, he thanked me for being so patient with him, and told me he was aware that he's neglected me lately and that I should be prepared for a course correction tonight.

Weekend Wrap-up

Omega tells me that we make plans and god laughs.  I alluded to a weekend away, Omega upon hearing it put the kibosh on it almost right away.  He appreciated my efforts but felt this was not the weekend to sneak away.  And he was right, Saturday morning the rain started falling and every sewer in the city became clogged and overwhelmed with all that pretty fall foliage.  Streets quickly overcome became like small rivers making driving difficult and walking fine with a wet suit.  My street is the worse when the rains pound.  We ended up filling sandbags and putting them around the front door.  


Yes, a mouse bunker.  


Needless to say our plans didn't go as planned, but the weekend though rather homebound was nice.  I made a stew for dinner last night, and we drank plenty of wine.  We spent most of the day watching the Godfather movies, including 6 hours of behind the scenes stuff (k, I gotta a little bored during that but Master was happy).  I gave him a nice long back rub too before he fell asleep, which I think he enjoyed.  


Not the weekend I had planned but a good weekend nonetheless.  As far as Master's mood, I would say it's improved somewhat; he was in a horrible funk still on Saturday but then Sunday his mood started to lift a little.  This morning he seemed less edgy, and more himself (though he did his share of grumbling that the kitchen was still kinda messy from last night's dinner).  I'm hoping that soon we can get back to our routine of play and maintenance soon.   I never really thought I'd say I'd miss the belt but I do.  There are so many things about him I miss since he's been in this funk, but I know my Master is trying to come back to me.  Maybe the wall he built around himself isn't so thick that I can't wriggle through.  

If Not for You

I don't know what to write about.  I thought about posting just a song, but decided it was not me to do that. 


I thought about posting a quote but couldn't find one that fit my mood.  I wanted to say something about Omega but there's nothing much to say, since he's still in his funk.  I will say it's really hard to feel someone in pain and not be able to help or not be allowed to help.  


I know he wants to protect me from himself and his emotions but I'm not afraid of them.  


In fact I've done something very uncharacteristic.  


I'll fill everyone in on Monday...


Just a short note for Master...I'll be at your office at 5 sharp to pick you up.


Have a wonderful weekend....I hope we will. 

Thankful Thursday #2

I've decided to do a little blessing counting, or things I'm thankful for.  There is a lot this year, and with lots of changes.  Today, I find myself being more balanced than I ever thought I could be, and also I'm painfully aware of unbalanced I was before.  I am thankful to Omega for helping me see this and for never giving up on me even when I wanted to give up on myself. 


I am also thankful for my friends, both online and real life because I think I would go crazy without them.  I am thankful for my dog.  I know that one sounds a little odd but he scared someone away from the house the other day and I'm grateful his bark is so fierce sounding. 


I am thankful that my friend's daughter seems to have gotten medical help just in time and will hopefully make a full recovery from the H1N1 virus.


I am thankful for my job, and that sometimes the good guys do win.


I am sending positive thoughts and vibes to those who need them and I'm hopeful their troubles will soon be resolved.  


Finally, I'm thankful that this year I will someone very special to kiss on New Year's Eve.  

Never

Master's been off lately, maybe out of his own balance, but off center.  I know we all get this way from time to time, and I'm actually glad to see that Master is no exception to that.   He normally handles everything so well; I often confuse him with Superman.  It's nice in someways, distressing in others, to see someone you love go through something and to feel helpless that you can't help them.  While at the same time I feel kinda privileged that he feels so comfortable around me to show me this other side of him. 






     Dear Master,


     I know your mood's been funky lately but I wanted you know how much I appreciate you and how much I love and care for you.  Like when you said you held little doubt that I would get over my past and become your perfection, I have little doubts that you'll come back to being the man I know and cherish once all the added tension and stress is over.


     I only wish you would let me in more and let me help you through this.  Until then I will work extra hard not to disappoint you and cause you additional stress.


     yours

I always forget

What its like that first early morning after the time change,  I really thought it would be lighter outside by now than it is.  Yesterday, my timing was really off, as I continued to check my watch, thinking it must be later than it was.  I personally wish they would just leave the time alone.  While we're at it, let's eliminate time zones too, I'm tired of seeing "live" stuff three hours after it's already aired.  


Just time for a quickie...I'll be back later to post more on the weekend after I've really shook the fuzzies from my brain.

Happy Halloween

Ya, Omega is kinda a halloween nut...the top photo affectionately known as Dead Ted, is in my bedroom and ya freaks me and the dog out each time we enter the room.

The middle one is actually a ghost...well a Pepper's Ghost....you can google that to read more about it.

Ya, I suck at carving pumpkins....Omega's came out much better...