There's no reason for this. No special day, nothing going on, except that I'm feeling overwhelmed with this intense need to express to Omega (and to everyone else) how incredibly happy I am. Life is interesting at times, we can have our lives mentally mapped out, and then suddenly, there's a change. It can be major, but sometimes they're just subtle. You don't get the job you want, but instead you find a job you're not as happy with, but turns out to be the best thing in your life.
My friend was headstrong about homeschooling her son when he was born, she just couldn't imagine ever letting go of him. It was all she talked about and she even started gathering supplies. Then as her son approached the age of 5, she changed her mind and sent him to school because it was actually what he wanted. See, a couple moved into the house next to them and their son was around the same age, and had older brothers. This child talked about going to school and how he couldn't wait. His infectious enthusiasm rubbed off on my friend's son and he started talking about when he'd go to school with his friend. They could ride the bus together and take turns sitting by the window. In the end my friend saw she had no choice but to let her son go to school. She became very involved in that school that just a few years earlier was not good enough for her son. She became president of the PTA. She never regretted it.
That's that subtle twist you just don't see coming.
My life was like that, maybe Omega's too, but I was just going along, thinking I was happy. I had a great career, a house, a dog. It was my slice of the American dream. I would go to lunch with friends, dinners too. Drinks after work. I played the game. Sure, there were times I wondered, what if? Then Omega came back into my life and I really started wondering about all that what if stuff.
Was I happy? I would actually ask myself that question and really, if you have to ask it, it's probably not true.
So this early morning I'm thankful. I'm thankful to Omega for bringing so much chaos, fun and love to my life.