Catch the Wind

Greetings from mouse,

The house was unusually still one evening, Daddy and mouse were whispering, playing the do you remember game. Back in March 2009 Daddy, sent mouse an email. Just a few words with a link..

He said he'd been awake during the night thinking of mouse. We weren't together at that time, but moving toward, erratically that end.

The link he sent was a to a YouTube video of Donovan. The song was Catch the Wind.

Here are the words...

In the chilly hours and minutes,

Of uncertainty, I want to be,

In the warm hold of your loving mind.

To feel you all around me,

And to take your hand, along the sand,

Ah, but I may as well try and catch the wind.

When sundown pales the sky,

I wanna hide a while, behind your smile,

And everywhere I'd look, your eyes I'd find.

For me to love you now,

Would be the sweetest thing, 'twould make me sing,

Ah, but I may as well, try and catch the wind.

When rain has hung the leaves with tears,

I want you near, to kill my fears

To help me to leave all my blues behind.

For standin' in your heart,

Is where I want to be, and I long to be,

Ah, but I may as well, try and catch the wind.

Now at the time mouse didn't think much about it (Ya she can be that dense) but later after we did become a couple mouse realized what he was trying to tell her. Music has always been mouse's poetry, more than once she accused him of not getting or understanding that...

Omega was effectively telling mouse he wanted her and she MISSED it...

That was the only musical cue she missed.

Another time we had a whole discussion, while he was away using nothing but music.

We've had arguments too, using music, horrible quarrels, even.

For a long time we thought expanding our family would be like catching the wind...

In November mouse mentioned that she had a secret she wasn't ready to share and faithful readers have noted changes.

Normally, we keep personal stuff off the blog, and originally intended to keep this private.

Then mouse read this...mouse wanted to say that she completely understood those feelings! That she was going through it...right now...It's life altering and wonderful...it's scary too.

We have a baby! We're over the moon with happiness. It's a lot of work and tons of changes...for all of us here. We thought we were prepared, really we weren't. But we're adjusting well.

The baby is gorgeous and is nursing well, waking every couple hours or so.

Daddy is adjusting without his morning oral attention that he's come to enjoy and mouse misses like crazy sleeping at night with him in mouse's mouth.

We have had wonderful moments together after the baby is tucked into bed. But then exhaustion on both our parts takes over and we opt for short play or loving (or just talk), in favor of longer sleep.

Our lives are ever evolving, and mouse does her very best to still make home Daddy's refuge from the world. It doesn't always work out that way now, but he has said more than once he appreciates the effort.

And even tho it doesn't need to be said, Omega is a wonderful and doting father.

Our friends, the ones that know us in real life are being supportive and have been throughout this process. But they think we're crazy too (at least they must). After all, we're settled, life is good, why on earth would we want to upset the cart???

Then this mom looks into her baby's eyes....

None of that matters, the crying, the serious lack of sleep...those first really rough nights...thinking mouse isn't qualified to do this...we seriously need someone waaaaay more qualified.

The baby roots around and latches...looking up with those squinty eyes...For that moment, all is right with the world.