Omega asked me to put labels on my posts, so I did, I started labeling them. Is it my fault you have to go to customize and check a box that says show labels??????? Omega sent me an email early in the morning (like before I was even out of bed), asking "did I not request that you put labels on your journal enteries?"
I hit reply and said yes, and I did that, and think to myself, phhht, and he calls me blond. However I didn't actually check it. I just assumed since I post and add a word to that label area it would just show up. This led to several text messages between us while he sat in an airport (he'll be back tonight). Finally, I checked my blog and saw what he saw, instead of just assuming he had lost his nut. He was right. Half hour later the problem was fixed, just as his plane landed safely. Well, maybe that took a little longer.
Then I saw the comment Omega left on my blog. grrrrrrrrr
I didn't want to go here, I want to positive. I want to say submitting yourself to another is wonderful; the best frigging thing in the world.
I would be lying though. It's hard sometimes, like with my blog..MY blog or at least it was. I know he's doing this for my own good. I get it, I do...Omega only wants to protect me. I just wish I didn't need that kind of protecting. It's been really difficult lately....all this learning about my body crap and trying to have a real orgasm without wanting to vomit after.
I'm pissed off at alpha...I am beyond hurt. When Omega touches me and nothing happens, I feel so fucking broken. It's this reminder...this constant reminder. I know I had to tell him everything...I know it was right. And I'm angry at him for being so fucking willing to help!
I don't want to be submissive. I want scream just leave me the hell alone!