Being in this lifestyle is sometimes very isolating. Dealing with people who believe it's an excuse to be rude, or to excuse rudeness. I dunno, it's all so frustrating at times. Omega is always respectful to me, unless we're playing but other wise the words please and thank you are always heard. He opens doors, holds the chair for me, in short he treats me like a lady. It's nice. I'm different when I'm around that kind of treatment. Honestly, I'm much more lady-like. Even if my mood is bad, or I'm feeling cranky, he can usually get me out of it, with a simple gesture.
Some suggest this isn't Domly behavior. Ya, he can tell me to get on knees and call me a bitch, but he finds it so much nicer when I'm on knees because I want to be, rather than just because he commanded it. I know some women like to be forced to do everything, but that just isn't me. I'm respectful to everyone I meet, but with some I just have to struggle to be the respectful woman Omega wants me to be. I dunno maybe I just believe that respect is something earned, not just handed because of whatever the reason. I don't respect my boss just because he's my boss. I respect him because he's good at what he does and is fair. I dunno maybe I'm just questioning everything these days. Including my slavery.
In other news, working from home is a huge adjustment. I dunno how I'm going to do everything, it seems with one exception nothing is getting done. A's schooling comes first. It seems everything else comes second. I know what the order should be but I guess I haven't found my groove.
I guess it's lonely at the bottom. I miss the office, I miss my friends, even the ones that don't understand me at all.
I miss blogging, but hopefully as things settle down I'll be doing that again. Most of all tho, I really miss reading and leaving comments on everyone's blogs.