Greetings from mouse,
Lately, mouse has had the song by Cheap Trick, called Surrender, rolling through her mind and thought that surrender might make for an interesting topic for the blog and it blends so nicely with mouse's latest thing with song lyrics...
Even though Daddy's been part of mouse's life for many years, even when we became a "couple," mouse didn't and couldn't just give herself away to him. He also didn't take because he could. There were issues, the past hanging over us, obscuring at times our path. But Daddy shined brightly to show the way. Through great patience, mouse slowly learned how to trust him, and each time he only as much as she offered. The trust that built up slowly, forming reserves of trust, which were needed when we problems.
That was how we made it through. Each day that passed we really continued to grow together. We've had our issues, our triumphs and big failures, but we learn from those missteps. We've in many ways isolated and insulated ourselves from the outside world. We like it that way. We let people take a peek into our lives, but only through a thick window covering. Maybe it's more like guided tour, we direct attention this way, but away from personal areas we don't want to share.
Recently, mouse pondered what it means to surrender yourself...here she was wrapped up safely in Daddy's arms and thoughts rolling around like a pinball machine. Bouncing around here and there. Yet that desire seems primal and strong...surrender.
Yesterday, the cleaning lady came, mouse struggled juggling the baby, dinner and helping kiddo with homework. Dinner was under control, so mouse decided to make some martinis for Daddy when he got home. He was surprised, musing if mouse planned to get him drunk to break bad news or take advantage of him. No bad news...take advantage of him?
That thought never crossed mouse's mind...