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Wednesday, April 25, 2012

It Had to be You

Omega came to mouse over the weekend and sat her down for a serious talk.  Now, serious discussions when announced instantly raise mouse's anxiety level.  After asking mouse's level, he explained softly that she wasn't in any trouble and had done nothing wrong.  While his words were meant to be a comfort, they weren't.  He continued to explain, for the next several weeks, he will seem emotionally detached or disinterested.  Work issues.  Now, he cautioned mouse that he needed her during this time to be very open with him.  "Everything will remain in place." he assured mouse.  We would still be doing the rituals and talk time before sleep (this time has become very important to mouse).  What he was requiring of her was honesty if she began feeling overwhelmed or upset.

Now in the past, mouse would become a bit disgruntled with his distance and that would lead to acting out and other poor behavior.  This time mouse's had clear rules to follow.  Since the beginning of the month, we've been working hard on our relationship.  He's been working hard on creating that place where mouse feels safe to talk about anything.  It can't be easy for him, because he always wants to fix things.  He wants to make things better, easier.  Instead, he offers nothing and simply listens.

Guess, he's right to be concerned, there is much almost too much going on and mouse is feeling lately more than a little fragile.  It's funny, mouse could handle work stress without batting an eye, real-life stress is something else entirely.  Sir really gets that.

During rituals, mouse, finally able to kneel, applied the clamps as Sir watched.  Repeating several times her mantra, "she is a slave and her purpose is to serve."  Sir looms large in her life and always had, as her mind reached backward.  As the thoughts drifted and eventually pulled her back to the present, it felt good.  Until the clamps were removed by him.  The pain made her gasp, bringing a chuckle from him.  It seems she always does that and he finds it sweet.

He led her back into the bedroom.  He bound her wrists behind her, and had her settle herself at his feet.  Immediately mouse opened her mouth eliciting a "good slave" from Sir.   All at once, she became lost in her headspace while worshipping him.   As his need increased, he touched her head and gripped her hair in his fist, tugging at it.  He moaned as her tongue worked it from top to bottom, then pausing to give his testicles some much needed attention, before beginning again.  Oh how she loves giving him pleasure this way!  All at once, he pulled her mouth away, lifted her onto the bed face down and plunged himself inside her.  He quietly remarked through gritted teeth that he loves having mouse open to him.  Groaning as he brought mouse to orgasm, then tightened the grip on her hair, pulling her toward him.  Our matching rthymns crashing until finally release.  Heavy breaths as he released her arms, rubbing them...inspecting her.

Presenting herself in her ritualistic display, Sir allowed mouse to lick him clean of our juices.  Then pulled mouse into bed, sliding himself over her, and behind.  He pulled mouse close and let her settle.  Just a short time passes before mouse begins to talk, first thanking him for the orgasm, then moving onto to whatever was going through her mind.

It's true her thought process winds around, almost like blogging.  Starting in one place and ending far from it.  Sometimes mouse will pause, when she speaks of something difficult to see if he's shocked.  Or upset.  If he is, he never says or even indicates.  More than likely, he will hold mouse close and that makes those safe feelings bubble to the surface.

We snuggle like that for a while until we drift to sleep.

Song selection: It Had To Be You; Tony Bennet version.

13 comments:

  1. Wishing you the very best during these next few weeks. When H is super busy at work(like now) I always have a difficult time.
    I'm going to try to remember daily that he doesn't need the added stress of me struggling while he's away at work.
    Thank you for writing,
    mg

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    1. Thanks and ya, trying to keep that clear here too...

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  2. Emotional detachment due to work issues is hard to deal with.

    It's good he's aware it's going to happen though, and mmm at the rest of it.

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    1. Conina,

      Got to admit, it's nice having a little head's up before it happened.

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  3. Next few weeks will be trying for you...My hubby gets that way when work issues arise. You are lucky that Omega took the time to prepare you for this. Just keep reminding yourself as his slave you have to support his well being too, even if that means accepting his emotional detachment.

    Best wishes
    Joyce

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    1. Joyce you're soooo very right. And mouse is very grateful to him. During this time mouse is making those 5 things a little more obvious. And since he's coming home later than normal, she's making special efforts to keep dinner somewhat lighter than normal.

      Except Friday's when he said he'll make a bigger effort to be home for Shabbat (and now that's it staying light longer, it will be easier for him).

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  4. I dont know about you but even though i get reasurred when the bossman is busy and distracted i find its when i get the most neediest, its almost like because i know there is going to be change albeit only temporary it puts me on edge.

    It becomes like a vicious circle, i dont tend to burden him with what i consider trivial matters because he is busy so then those trivial matters become bigger issues because im not dealing with them, so i act up and my behavior becomes irrational and then i feel guilty because of how im behaving and he doesnt need it, he then gets frustrated with me for letting it get to that point and i get pissy at him for not seeing that i was at that point.

    Thats how not to handle it...now i just need to practice what i preach lol

    I hope it goes smoothly for you and please tell me it does get easier, at least the rituals and night-time talking will still be present, there needs to be that constant i think especially when they are busy and distracted.

    best wishes
    tori x

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    1. tori....

      OOOOOOh ya....but working hard (very hard) to keep those feelings contained. But ya, it's almost like being told not to scratch something and suddenly you can't think about anything else.

      So far, we've been keeping to rituals and talking and it's very helpful to mouse. Maybe it helps him unwind too a little. He's been taking time to get more exercise too. Now that's double edged sword because he leaves much earlier in the morning some days, but it's sooo beneficial to him, mouse can't complain.

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  5. I hope the next few weeks go by quickly. It;s nice that you were able to have a talk about it beforehand.

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    1. It was soooo nice dancing....and mouse too, hopes they pass quickly...

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  6. I like to blog in these moments -- so when I start to forget -- I can go back and read it and remind myself that he loves me.

    hugs -- let us know if you need some sister support

    sfp

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    1. sfp,

      Exactly! It's sooooo true. And yes, mouse will likely at some point be calling on her sisters before this is over...LOL.

      Really, it's just nice to know you're all there!

      Hugs,
      mouse

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