Nothing is ever set in stone, recently a new reader has been reading mouse's blog from the beginning. Leaving comments along the way and let's be clear, it's wonderful they're taking the time. Since mouse doesn't see the whole post, she has to go back and read what's there. There are times that mouse reads the first words and is transported back in time to the moment.
One thing that's completely clear, is that where Daddy and mouse are today is world away from where we began. We no longer have the fun basement space, and honestly mouse doesn't regret in anyway losing that. While sometimes she does miss the hard way we used to play, the memories it evoked probably weren't good for mouse. Daddy had his own issues with hard play although he loved seeing his inner sadist run amuck, he also realized that he couldn't quite control the sadistic urges. He ended it before things went too far for us -- before we ventured down a path neither of us could return from easily.
Yes, in many ways the end of that part did disappoint mouse but she trusted and still trusts that he understood a good deal more about the inner workings of his mind than mouse could ever fully grasp. He is very big on accepting responsibility for his own limits. The big shift happened between us, when mouse realized she was far more comfortable referring to him as Daddy. When he allowed himself to be gentler and softer with mouse -- because it was best for her and he discovered he enjoyed it. It didn't change who he is and we grew more together, better connected.
It's been a trade off maybe, the harder play has fallen away, but replaced with more ingenious play that still makes mouse squirm as much as the other stuff did.