Thursday, May 28, 2009
Omega scares me sometimes, not in a bad way but a way I find terrifying nonetheless. I find myself getting lost in the worship of him (and worship is an apt description of what I feel), and my brain often tries to pull me back to reality. I find myself ignoring my brain where he is concerned. Deeper and deeper I slide falling into him. It can be daunting losing you in the existence of another, as well as electrifying.
Mentally, I find myself mired in a struggle for constancy. I have submitted myself to Omega and handed everything I am over to him, and he is proving himself more than worthy of that task. The rational side of my mind ponders if I haven't placed him atop a pedestal and with such great height, the further he can fall from it.
Should that happen, what would become of me?