"trust is not a "Get Out Of Jail Free" card...You are (both) still responsible for upholding the terms under which it was first given."
--Jz; A Reluctant Bitch Blog
The topic today was trust and not past trust but future trust. What we must do avoid making the same mistakes and I'm writing this just for myself. Omega and I did become very complacent, and there's no other way to sugar coat it. If we hadn't allowed that to happen we wouldn't have gone down that road. I dunno, if we'd have avoided everything but maybe a lot of it. Who knows?
We must trust each other, and relearn it to some degree, as the weekend kinda proved that to us. Somethings I have to admit I'm too girly in my thought process, and other things he's just too damn male. The therapist was extraordinary in pointing those out (without any tears from me this time). We spoke honestly about the road ahead and the work still left to do. The therapist is comfortable with our progress and reminded us that we need to keep working. Trust is the hardest part for Omega to rebuild in me, and he knows it. He makes no promises to try but does promise me that I will see that he means what he says. The therapist actually stopped him there and asked him what happens when trust is restored? Omega is all about goals so the therapist wanted to know what is the goal for after that. Or is this a task that must be completed, and once completed pushed aside or filed away.
He gave the right answers saying the work is never done.
I left the session full of hope, but once I was back home doubt started creeping in. I guess that's why I'm writing this now. I need to trust we can both make this right...together.