Omega, as always, has a plan. He wants me to be open.
Let me start over.
When I began to embrace my inner slut, I wanted her out in the open all the time. I asked Omega if there was any way possible to keep me that way. To be mindless, not to think. His answer was very clear. No.
To maintain that level of control is hard, to have to tell me every thing would be impossible to keep up. Silly idea anyway.
This morning in our basement he drove me crazy. He was wild, and yanno really good sex has a smell to it. You could smell us everywhere. He asked if I wanted to orgasm....and I nodded...he made me beg for it. Not just ask but really beg. He made me say words, when in that slut headspace came easily, but are difficult for me to say under normal circumstances. I wanted it tho...I was greedy for the orgasm. I was greedy for him. I would have meowed.
So, now, if I want to orgasm, I have to ask him.
I have to beg. Plead.
And of course he can still say no.
Why is it that this makes me hot?
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So much is so counter to what is expected - why do we want such things - to not think, to be denied? All the way around - it's a strange thing.
green girl...you are so right! O said it's just masochist in me. It's confusing at times.
Hugs,
mouse
Yeah -- I love/hate the begging for it.
too bad he love/loves it.
sfp
i have a love hate relationship with begging, too. On one hand, it makes me feel humiliated and sometimes i freeze up so the words don't come at all, which ruins whatever is going on at the time. Obviously, when He says 'no' that's not something i particularly like, because, well, orgasms are fun. But i agree, the fact that He *can* and ultimately *does* say 'no' is really really hot, because it shows how much control He has, which is probably why every orgasm i have to beg for seems that much more intense!
We're complex creatures.
-r.
It sounds logical to me. You're submissive. By having to beg for release, your submission and lack of control, as well as Omega's control over you, is affirmed. I'm guessing it should be making you both hot. :-)
I might very well be missing some aspect here, but I think you've given some of the clues here yourself. You wanted the inner slut to be out in the open all the time. By having to say all those (slutty?) words, isn't the inner slut being more manifest? Isn't it harder to put her away outside of play that way? Maybe you cant have the inner slut out in the open all the time, but maybe there can be more of a scale between sluttiness and non-sluttiness along which you could move with more ease, where the inner slut, or at least parts of her, would be more accessible to you? (Sorry if this dosen't makes sense, I'm not quite sure I totally get the boundaries of the inner slut.)
sfp...ya exactly what you said.
rose...yup
Ms Lennoxx....you hit the nail right on the head.
Hugs,
mouse
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