This question might take a little more time....
3) How do you know you are submissive or have the potential to be submissive? How do you feel when you express your submission?
This was decided by someone else -- a warped individual who saw quite clearly submissive qualities in mouse before she was old enough to understand what that meant, it should also be atressed this was before the internet. It triggered something primal inside mouse -- and it was something that she NEVER believed would be truly realized. Now this is mostly because of her past and abuse she suffered for well roughly 5 years of the decade she was with the warped one.
Yes, she wanted Daddy -- even then but honestly he had distanced himself from our situation. He remained something of dream but mouse was far too terrified to let him in. Even after we got together and began living together -- mouse didn't trust him and as consequence mouse doubted her submission...
Ya, that's right --- she questioned if submission was just a nice idea. But once she stopped hiding those feelings -- learned to express them to him safely, she learned that submission is real. Totally possible with the right person.
Today, mouse finds herself giving more than she thought possible and her reservoir is never depleted because he fills it up. Yes, its filled with him and filtered by mouse and returned to him again....
When mouse actively demonstrates her submission to Daddy -- it makes her feel complete. Whole...more than the sum of her parts. It pleases her -- giving her a case of the warm fuzzies to know he's happy or proud of mouse.
3 comments:
Thank you mouse for a terrific description of what it feels like when you are submissive. Perfect.
Just *hugs* :)
Your posts are so interesting and well expressed, mouse.
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