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Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Times are Good or Bad

Despite his well kept appearance, Daddy has man hands. They're worn, calloused and rough -- mostly due to his passion for woodworking. Still it's a hobby he doesn't indulge in often enough. He's too busy to spend hours lost like that, but the effect it has on him is similar to what baking has on mouse.

Rough hands grabbing and caressing the tender parts fuels mouse's desire for him -- just as his scent drives her mad...His large hands can encircle her neck easily and without applying the least bit of pressure has the most incredible effect on mouse. In fact, even right now mouse can find the right words to describe it. Overpowering? Demonstrative? It draws out her submission to him the way few things can. Quickly resigning herself to him. Trust? Yes there is lots of that. It's like the trust a dog or cat displays when you touch their throat. Instinctively they want to self-protect, but the trust they feel overwhelms that urge and tempers it.

They simply trust and perhaps have great faith they won't be harmed.

Sometimes when Daddy touches mouse -- tenderly and at the right moment, the floodgates open and mouse will actually cry. It baffles Daddy. He instantly will worry if he'd done something wrong. He's pretty sure he wasn't too harsh so the emotional reaction makes him wonder. In truth, and it's taken mouse forever to realize it herself, he'll withhold so much of himself at times. It can just because he's not touchy feely guy or that he's busy...he doesn't care for open displays of affection. Even in private he's reserved.

Now this could just be surrounding issues he had with intimacy.

Over the past couple years that's been changing. He's been treating mouse more like a piece of delicate china. When he does this, it overwhelms mouse because deep down she needs it and it was an unmet need for such a long time. So long in fact, she'd forgotten that she even needed it. Once it began happening with some frequency more than a year ago, it struck mouse how badly she's needs the gentle him as much as the more sinister parts.

It was probably around the time mouse began referring to him as Daddy.

March 2011! Ok -- it's been more than a couple of years now. It punctuates for mouse how far we've both come.

Guess the bigger thing is mouse hasn't ever known a lot of tenderness. Let's be honest the biggest reason she probably stayed with Alpha at all was because he seemed to pay attention to her. There was little tenderness with him tho...it was all about pain.

What also drew mouse to Daddy was maybe his aloofness and strong responsible streak. We seemed at the time to be more than suited for each other and mouse was more than comfortable with the level of affection he'd show. Then, as he began to show more affection...

And for a while now, he's been showing much more affection and gentleness and it takes mouse's breath away! There's been times that she's doubted his love or wondered if maybe he was somehow trying to manipulate her, but never again. We're inside each other. And that's nice.

Added this morning...

Daddy read this post (who knows it it'll be published at this point), he remarked that a smart man once told him when we first got together that this relationship wouod change Daddy more than he would ever realize. Sir J was completely right.

And mouse is thrilled about that and beyond thrilled with all Daddy's given her. Thank you! I love you.

Song Selection: Let's Stay Together; Al Green

26 comments:

  1. Two smart men! - delicate china is very valuable and needs to be cherished :)

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  2. mouse,
    A few years ago, when i was terrified of ruining the good marriage i had by asking my husband to consider changing its structure, a smart man told me that it wasn't wholesale change i was going for in any case, that it would still be our loving marriage, but different. And moreover - change would happen, was already happening, no matter what. Sir J was right about that too.

    I don't have a point of comparison, but i believe that being M/s and being married are more and better than the sum of their parts. For us, they interact so that the marriage is more deeply felt, more intimate. And, from my POV, I can give myself to him because I love him, am dedicated to him. I think the same is true, in its own form, for him.

    This is really lovely to read about both of you and your relationship.

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    1. greengirl,

      Totally agree that M/s does foster a lot of intimacy and communication -- and it totally is give and take. And ya Sir J was right...

      Hugs,
      mouse



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  3. Your relationship continues to grow and flourish. Reminds me of spring.
    Hug,
    Joey

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  4. So happy for you Mouse. It seems when you too began you were in the right place for each other. You have come so far and from this readers standpoint it does not seem you would have so readily been comfortable with this much affection from the get go. You two have grown together and that's just perfectly wonderful.

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    1. We have and we continue to grow and evolve. It's nice and comfortable.

      Really don't think we'd change a thing

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  5. SR can be reserved too. It's not lost on me that i have opened up something in her. So much so that she will approach me first for a hug, has kissed me in public a few times. She would say that it is something i need. i would say it is something she needs (too). :)

    There is something special about watching people transform and open up....especially when its the person in control. We don't talk so much about that in the community. It's very....satisfying...because we would adapt no matter what.

    i'm happy for you, mouse....and esp for your Daddy.

    jade
    www.jadescastle.wordpress.com

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    1. Hi jade!

      Yep..It is something we neglect to mention. We focus more on the submission side of things and ignore the changes that occur on the Dom side of the fence.

      It's nice to know we have a positive effect tho...

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  6. The law of averages would suggest I would get one right eventually. As I remember those conversations I was simply being a mirror reflecting back what Omega already knew to be true.

    I have known you mouse for a long time now, since just before Omega came back into you life. I knew even back then you were one of those rare soles who had endured true horror and that you now deserved all the best life could offer. I don't mean things or possessions but true love and happiness. The kind of happiness that does not just fill you with light but obliterates darkness and leaves it an old and forgotten memory. I am so happy you have found that and remember what I told you when last we spoke, if he starts slipping I would be more than happy to come and kick him in the pants for you. (with kindest regards O)

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    1. Thank you and he returned the kind regards...

      And you're right completely (as usual)

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  7. Its funny how time flies by so quickly it doesnt seem as though it has yet of course realistically we know time is consistent!

    The bossman has an aloof nature and isnt one for displaying emotions which can make him appear 'hardened' or cold perhaps, but he has gradually got better..dare i say it but i think age is mellowing him somewhat...hopefully not too much lol

    Your happiness (both of yours) shines through on this blog and thats a wanderful thing.

    x

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    1. tori,

      Yea...time does fly! And you're right too about age mellowing...

      Think maybe Daddy and mouse had we gotten together earlier, wouldn't have worked out very well.

      Think we both needed to mellow out a bit...

      And now it's nice.

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  8. Yes change always happens, and sometimes it's for the better, as with you two, mouse and Omega. Always delighted to read your posts, mouse, even when they are not so light-hearted.

    I'm reminded of Kaya's blog, which portrays great change over a number of years since 2005.

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  9. So very beautiful mouse! Congratulations to you both on the fulfilling life you are continually creating for yourselves. I love these moments of reflection in my life. Sometimes it's a necessity to see where you've come from.

    Hugs

    P

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    1. P,

      Yes it is and it's nice to be able to reflect back on those feelings that got you where you are...

      That's the hidden benefit to blogging mouse thinks.

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  10. This is such a lovely post, mouse. I never knew how he became 'Daddy'. It's rather like how Ward became Daddy...it was a sudden realization that there was a trust in him that I have never experienced. Moments like that are a wonder.

    My Daddy has also been my first taste of tenderness, devotion and unconditional love. And there are times, yes, when all it takes is a look, a smile, a touch, to bring tears because I never thought I would know the joy of being loved, of being wanted, of being completely and thoroughly owned.

    Thank you for sharing this, mouse.

    (((hugs)))

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    1. June,

      So many people think it's an age play thing or something like that. It came from a place of great nurturing and love.

      And ya...ok when baby girl came along, mouse did briefly stop calling him Daddy...but really decided that was silly. It's about how he makes mouse feel...not about other stuff...yanno?

      Hugs,
      mouse

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  11. We grow and change that is part of the fun of life. It id funny how becoming Daddy's girl changes things. It is a different trust, different level...

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  12. You both have changed. I'm always delighted to read what you have to say Mouse (don't always comment) and this was lovely.

    Love and hugs to you both,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. Your comments are always appreciated Ronnie!

      <3

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