Last week was huge and busy for all of us. Daddy took command and organized what needed to be done. It's not that it was that complicated. Or difficult, it only took a minute of Daddy's time. It only made mouse feel strange at this moment while writing this post. It was as though mouse began worried about sharing something so simple.
Sometimes it's sharing the smallest details, that leaves mouse feeling the most vulnerable to her readers. Most days things are written without much thought to what others might think. We're very comfortable with how our lives work -- but it's also, at times, it' leaves us wide open and exposed to criticisms. Some are well-meaning but others are intentionally hurtful to us both. Daddy doesn't care much but knows they bother mouse.
Daddy commands mouse always, because it's what she needs from him and he's happiest when he's in control. There it is again -- feeling the great need to apologize for who we are and how we connect.
Daddy sets the pace and mouse follows him but, if mouse gets too far behind, he waits for her to catch up to where he is. Our connection is strengthened daily. Not just by one thing but of all we do together. From the moment we wake, Daddy decides what mouse will wear, which he keeps in mind the activity of the day. He makes certain the clothing fits the task and he loves it when mouse dresses outwardly conservative but underneath knows she's a pantiless slut for him to use as he wishes.
When we eat out, he controls what mouse eats and the speed. All the little things mouse does for him reinforces her submission to him. Its never just one thing we do, it's all the things we do that together define our place. When mouse slows her eating, it's because she's focused on paying attention to how fast he's eating.
We maintain and strengthen and yes deepen our commitment and connection to each other daily in all that we do. When we meditate together it's sensual and amazing -- so hard to put into words. It keeps mouse tethered and grounded but bound to him. When he tells her to "be still" she knows that she needs to quiet her mind not only temper her words.