Last week was huge and busy for all of us. Daddy took command and organized what needed to be done. It's not that it was that complicated. Or difficult, it only took a minute of Daddy's time. It only made mouse feel strange at this moment while writing this post. It was as though mouse began worried about sharing something so simple.
Sometimes it's sharing the smallest details, that leaves mouse feeling the most vulnerable to her readers. Most days things are written without much thought to what others might think. We're very comfortable with how our lives work -- but it's also, at times, it' leaves us wide open and exposed to criticisms. Some are well-meaning but others are intentionally hurtful to us both. Daddy doesn't care much but knows they bother mouse.
Daddy commands mouse always, because it's what she needs from him and he's happiest when he's in control. There it is again -- feeling the great need to apologize for who we are and how we connect.
Daddy sets the pace and mouse follows him but, if mouse gets too far behind, he waits for her to catch up to where he is. Our connection is strengthened daily. Not just by one thing but of all we do together. From the moment we wake, Daddy decides what mouse will wear, which he keeps in mind the activity of the day. He makes certain the clothing fits the task and he loves it when mouse dresses outwardly conservative but underneath knows she's a pantiless slut for him to use as he wishes.
When we eat out, he controls what mouse eats and the speed. All the little things mouse does for him reinforces her submission to him. Its never just one thing we do, it's all the things we do that together define our place. When mouse slows her eating, it's because she's focused on paying attention to how fast he's eating.
We maintain and strengthen and yes deepen our commitment and connection to each other daily in all that we do. When we meditate together it's sensual and amazing -- so hard to put into words. It keeps mouse tethered and grounded but bound to him. When he tells her to "be still" she knows that she needs to quiet her mind not only temper her words.
22 comments:
Hugs,
Never apologize for being you mouse, your lifestyle is beautiful and so many must love and enjoy reading what you do, because there are always heaps of comments. For myself i normally lurk with the odd comment relishing the fact that there is someone else out there that loves control as much as i do. ( though you are far better behaved than i )
(((hugs)))) and thank you for sharing .
saffy x
thank you mouse for this. I needed this today, to remember I'm not alone where I am and how we do things.
xo,
mg
I think it's sexy, and admire your ability to follow, and his to lead. Leading, controlling, is no small item, and not all can do it!
Do you get many critical comments mouse?
I get a few, maybe im paranoid but i seem to get more than fellow bloggers....that im aware of, depending on whats said and how i am at the time, i can get upset...some just seem to effect me more than others.....bossman takes the view that it says more about them than it does about us...i guess he has a point.
I do feel defensive at times, do you ever feel like that?
anyway, i like many others enjoy your writings because you appear so at ease with who you are, how your relationship is, your happy..thats what matters most really isnt it.
x
It may always seem like they will find something to critique, but keep in mind most of the time its something themselves would never think or be able to do.Not because they wont enjoy it, but because they do not have the level of strength you possess to give yourself up to someone completely and irrevocably.
Never apologize for being you.i've been reading your blog the past couple of days.You're happy.Dont let others put you down
Mouse, you and Omega have worked hard, and overcome great challenges to arrive at this place of peace and calm. Now, I hope that you can simply enjoy all that you have achieved without having to feel the need to apologize to anyone for your obvious joy in one another.
Hugs,
swan
Dearest mouse,
It troubles me that anyone would be unkind when you are so generous to share your life here. It truly is the small details that are the most memorable and make your life beautiful to see.
jade
www.jadescastle.wordpress.com
I agree. That's a lot of the reason I read other people's blogs and write my own...to feel a connection with those who "get it" and don't judge.
Thank you for sharing the little details. And, thank you for your courage despite the occasional negative comments.
Hug,
joey
To me the only thing that should matter is that, whatever people do, it has the effect of making them feel loved, protected and closer together. What shouldn't matter is that *their* way of being happy isn't always mine.
There have been times when I have read a blog, post or comment elsewhere that has seemed like a cry for help because something that is happening in someone else's life, whether through design or genuine error, isn't making them feel loved and seems to be causing them hurt. On those occasions, although I do try my best to be gentle and non judgemental about this, I have tried to respond to that cry and offer whatever help I can.
However, on this blog, I don't ever remember reading anything with that less than positive feel, so, although I'm not sure that I have ever commented here before, I hope that I've never said anything to make you feel this way.
Thanks saffy, sometimes mouse needs to be reminded of that too.
Hugs,
mouse
Monkey Girl and Brigit Delaney,
This happens to mouse at times, she'll run across something that just resonates deeply with how she's feeling at a given moment. It's so comforting to know that you're not alone.
It's like a path, suddenly realizing the reason it's so worn isn't because of you pacing -- but because others have traveled the same road before you.
Hugs and love,
mouse
Thanks paradoxy!
Glad there are people who get it.
Hugs,
mouse
Hey tori!
Yes, at times mouse does get defensive and feels the need to make excuses for our relationship. It's maybe also because she wants so much for people not to get the wrong impression. We're talking idle readers....
Sometimes it just hits mouse all at once.
Hugs,
mouse
Ss,
Yes you're exactly right...it probably speaks more about them than it does us...
It's important to remember that!
Hugs,
mouse
Sue you nailed it! It's also sometimes that you're waiting for a shoe to drop...and it just doesn't.
It's weird...
Huge hugs,
mouse
<3 ya Jade!! Always!
Big huge for you too! Thanks so much Joey!!!
Big huge *hugs*
DL,
Thanks for your lovely comments! What mouse was referring to were anonymous comments and remarks.
And yes, mouse has come across blogs that set off her radar too...and it's hard to remember that when we see them -- it's only a snapshot of their lives too...
But some are focused waaaay too much on punishment and the sub seems always sad...
Hugs,
mouse
Hello mouse
I am delighted to hear your summer was filled with many adventures and that you and your family are back home adjusting to life in the "real world". I myself am in awe that August has nearly come to an end and my favourite season is fast upon us. Life has a way of passing quickly, thankfully you have your journal to record your moments, those memories you wish to remember.
Relationships are interesting unions. I know that Master and I have experienced highs and lows and like you I have documented many of our exchanges which has left us open to criticism. Putting your world, or bits and pieces of it, into text can leave you vulnerable to verbal assignations and that can, if you are not careful, eventually break your spirit.
Whether I agree to how you and Omega live holds no relevance to your lives. Who am I? Who is anyone on the world wide web? We all have wrinkles in ourselves and the relationships we engage in. We make mistakes, we try new things, we learn and hopefully evolve. I know what Master and I share, how we have decided to live together disturbs many. When I was writing regularly in my journal I would find a minimum of 2 negative comments waiting for me every morning. People telling me how horrible I am. That I alone was the destruction of woman-kind and the cause for all crime committed on the fairer sex. I was reminded daily that my submission was merely an excuse for not leaving an abusive relationship and that it was a blessing I was unable to have children for if I could I would be bringing them into a harmful, destructive relationship.
In the beginning those comments tore at my heart. I doubted who I was, who Master was and even questioned my sanity. I eventually sought help through a psychologist who contrary to many of my readers declared me sane and in a healthy relationship. The reality, as challenging as it was for me to accept, was that some people are simply unkind. There are individuals in this world who seek to hurt, to judge and learning how to separate those who genuinely care versus those who wish to spread hatred is the key to feeling comfortable in sharing and not feeling the need to make excuses.
You are who you are. Omega is who he is. Together you have found a connection that brings you both to life. That fuels both of you with love, acceptance, understanding, compassion, excitement and growth. He leads, you follow. Not because he makes you but because you want to. You have a union based on love and respect and how you both choose to live that life is of no one's business but your own. You owe no one an explanation. You owe no one an excuse.
We see just a peek into the world you share. Personally I am grateful for it, for all you expose, for allowing me to connect with a like minded soul.
Sending you and Omega many smiles.
x
~cockdoll
Awwww. SR said she thought you are such a classy lady that your probably were wearing your pearls while fishing. :) She reads here too sometimes, though not as often as I do.
<3 ya too! :D
jade
www.jadescastle.wordpress.com
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