Daddy doesn't censor mouse often, he doesn't often say to her that she shouldn't post something because it might invite trouble or people might misunderstand. He will often tell mouse words are an inadequate way of communicating. He didn't tell mouse not to publish the last post, he suggested she wait and mouse did wait a few hours and published it.
Now that annoyed Daddy because he feels he was clear that mouse should wait. We disagree on that point. Daddy put mouse on a time out of sorts for her to think. He could stand her in a corner all day and it won't change her perspective or belief his words were only a suggestion, not an order.
Daddy did make one point, we shouldn't shy away from controversial subjects. Open displays of submission in public areas are always a bit tricky to deal with. Daddy said we must be prepared to steel ourselves so that little things don't bother. Open displays of submission are entirely an appropriate topic on a blog discussing openly a power exchange dynamic. So, what was the problem? Sincerely mouse wanted to know.
The issue to him wasn't what the women had said, but mouse's response to give up more control, via the passwords, etc, to prove to them or herself that her trust and maybe her submission was genuine. He did keep the list by the way. He said he'll decide but he first wants mouse to seriously consider her reasons for it. Is what she wants and feels compelled to do, or is it just simply for show? Has she backed herself into a corner? The biggest thing to him was why now? Why was this bothering mouse so much? Then he read her reply to Goodgirl, who asked the same thing and held mouse for a long time.
When mouse just blurted out what her issue was with the past (yet again) she feels like she's failed again. Where were all those caring people when she went to work with a black eye and covered in bruises?
But now...when she's in the best most healthiest relationship she's ever had -- now people think she's being abused? That's really what's so fucked up.
Daddy said he's going to give mouse time take it back, after that time passes, it's up to him.
It's a lot to consider.
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11 comments:
I think your Daddy is right... sounds like he usually is ;) And I completely understand your frustration wrt to people having nothing to say about bruises, but everything to say about something good and right. Your Daddy and your relationship sounds absolutely perfect to me, and is exactly the amount of control I prefer as well. So I vote for reconsidering and possibly taking it back, if for no other reason than your Daddy certainly seems to know (you) best. ;)
You know what touched me in all of this is your comment
"When mouse just blurted out what her issue was with the past (yet again) she feels like she's failed again."
Why do you feel like you have failed mouse, really have you? its understandable that at times there are going to be triggers that bring the past to the forefront of your mind, it was all a big part of your life.
But as and when they do, they can be dealt with, worked through, you have such wanderful support from Omega, you have your children, a failure? no, i see a strong woman, a slave that thrives in her submission and Omega's control, you only have to look at your own posts to see that.
x
mouse my heart just broke for you with your last post. People are so rude and say the most awful things. What i read, and I'm sure what most everyone reading that saw, was a beautiful thing. I'm emotional and anxious and apparently have a wee little tendency to overreact to things that happen. And to drag past hurts and problems into the here and now. I saw myself in every bit of that and this too. So for what it's worth, I admire your relationship and love reading your blog. I'm glad you're back and I'm even more glad when you say you're not giving this up. I've got no advice or words of wisdom. Just a big hug!
Hi mouse,
First I want to say thanks for sharing your blog. I’ve been lurking for quite a while and so many of your posts have been incredibly helpful to me in my own journey.
I don’t want to assume what actually happened, but it’s evident to me the deep love you share with your Daddy. When you wrote your post about your date the other night, that’s how I pictured it – just a happy couple sharing an intimate moment. So he ordered and fed you? I’ve seen ‘suggestions’ like that in hundreds of very vanilla magazines and books about ‘spicing up your marriage’. I may be wrong, but perhaps these women picked up on the depth of love in your relationship, and tried to pick it apart. They made judgments about your relationship and decided to inform you, not because they were genuinely concerned and wanted to ‘save you’, but because they’re unhappy people in their own lives. I’ve met lots of women like this in my life – always quick to judge everything from how you dress to how you parent your kids.
Don’t let people like that take a crumb of your happiness. And thanks again for sharing so much. You’ve been a great help to me!
-aurora
Thanks mala and yes he does know mouse very well. :)
Hugs,
mouse
That's a hard thing to answer...Daddy reminds mouse that it will always be there, but how mouse responds to it is within her control.
Sometimes it does feel like it's all behind her and she's moved beyond it all...then something happens and it brings it all back that she's forgotten nothing...
You're right of course mouse has so much to be grateful for...
Hugs,
mouse
Awww thanks so much chickadee!
big hugs back to you...
That is an excellent point aurora! Magazines do often suggest that to put a spark back into a marriage/relationship...
Should have yelled its Cosmo's fault....LOL
You're other point about women who judge other women....Yep spot on! Dunno if they're bitter or whatever...but ya, mouse has met many of those types too over the years.
And don't get mouse started on the one's who offer parenting advice...OY!
Hugs,
mouse
Oh I wrote Alhpa, I meant Omega, I'm so sorry. I'm slightly dyslexic and muddled the words (only the words, absolutely not the people) up in my head. many many apologies
Thanks so much and thank you for commenting and clarifying.
Dunno what the deal was with the women. A friend (who's kinda in the lifestyle suggested they were the ultra feminist types who believe men oppress women around every corner...
Honestly mouse doesn't know.
Yes, they seemed to take an amount of pleasure telling mouse....
In mouse's humble opinion those are the types that give feminism a really bad name.
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