Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again...
It's quiet, and not that bad uncomfortable quiet like we had last week but a nice easy quiet. Sir's been busy with work and settling arrangements for his holiday a mere weeks away. He said he's going to work to make his mouse comfortable with her submission in sort of public settings. He's not into outlandish things but serving him is something he would like mouse to not feel the need to make excuses for.
On the surface it sounds so simple. Just do what Sir wants! In practice, however mouse feels the need to explain the omnipresent "why" in everything. Like well, "just old fashioned this way." or some other flavored excuse. We've grown adapt at him handling the ordering of meals, with mouse sometimes looking at the menu and saying that she just can't decide and turning to him...
Sometimes he'll cut that off by saying he'll be ordering for the lady. Can mouse just say that she wants to die a little inside when he does that? Yes, she shouldn't give a toss what anyone thinks..and for most part she doesn't. Except when she does feel the flush of embarrassment. The quiet sometimes helps her sort out why it bothers her? Why does society and other people's expectations bother mouse at times?
It's all ego and appearances and the crux of the matter. Sir gets it and understands it and wants mouse to feel more at ease with ignoring it. If people jump to the conclusion that she's a "ninny" well, he said so be it. He also reminded mouse many, many times that he knows that she's absolutely that. Sir believes firmly that women can do and be anything they wish. They're not above or below men; equal but different. If mouse wanted to return to work, he would support it and encourage her to follow whatever dream she has. Time and again she has confirmed here and to him personally that she doesn't want to be ashamed of her submission. It bothers her to no end that she feels she must defend it or worse make excuses for it, as though it's wrong.
So, Sir will help mouse and assist her in changing the way she feels and thinks about things. The summer place is perfect for this, since we're seasonal -- nobody really knows us. It's his hope that as mouse sees that no one cares about the little things she does or will think less of her for them.