Last night, Daddy called mouse into his study, it had been punishment day, and yes, there was some angst in mouse. He told her efforts had not gone unnoticed by him. The demerits accrued were few and he explained them to her, so she'd understand why she would be punished and asked her what she could have done differently to avoid the demerit.
We talked for a while, then he went to the wardrobe and pulled out the leather strap and cane. He had mouse bend over his desk, and lift her skirt. This was punishment, he struck her several times with the strap, before switching to the cane. After he held mouse and spoke gently again discussing the nature of the punishment, for which mouse genuinely thanked him.
After the punishment, he said it was already rather late, so we went upstairs to bed. He watched as mouse went through her bedtime routine, as he does each night. He used mouse the way he wanted and soon we settled with him snaked around her body in that familiar way.
As we talked the subject of the blog came up, as it often does and he said how proud he was of the last several posts. In those, mouse has displayed some genuine introspection and realizations he felt were useful to us both. He went on to say he enjoys it immensely when mouse uncovers things or truths about her own submission and shares it in the blog and with him. Especially when they're things she hasn't exactly talked about to him before in any detail.
The feelings swelled within mouse and it made her feel, despite the punishment just a couple hours before, this blog is still useful to us. He never has placed a deep restriction on what mouse writes about. If its something sexy, he doesn't mind it. But these last few posts he said he learned something about mouse -- he felt was there but wasn't sure about. The striking need for approval completely made sense to him -- and had led to a long discussion with other things not mentioned in the post. Things mouse finds difficult or too unimportant to discuss or dwell on.
It really made mouse feel good, but at the same time she wondered about what her next weeks posts will be about. In the end she does want to please Daddy.
6 comments:
I consider pretty often closing my blog - almost no one reads, and i know i've long since passed the point at which what i write or what i wonder would be of any interest to anyone but the two of us. It is specific only to Him and me, and it only really has meaning in the context of Him and me. But He has asked me to continue. He won't require it - and i can see that would risk it feeling like a burden and be counterproductive - but He says he likes it and would like me to continue. How could i not? Too often i feel i have nothing at all to say - but sometimes the exercise of trying to write something does lead me to uncover or untangle feelings about things I hadn't seen before. I'm glad to read that yours is useful to the two of you - thank you for continuing to share it.
I dont know about you mouse, but i tend to find the tears start during the lecture, and what i find difficult is when he asks me to tell him why i deserve to be punished....honestly as much i recognise that it is important to understand why one is being punished, i would much rather spare the lecture and get it over and done with.
Likewise, what i do enjoy about blogging is the conversations it provokes between the two of us, and i talk to him about what i have been reading etc....which by the way thank you for the info you gave ref violet wand branding....well im thanking you now..i may not be should he go ahead with it lol
hope you all have a lovely weekend
x
As you know, I'm struggling with relationship and blogging right now, but it does seem like it does you good to have a place to float your ideas.
Fury
Thanks green girl and you're completely right...untangling the emotions makes blogging important -- even when it seems it's not.
Hugs,
mouse
Tori,
Yanno, mouse snorted a little as she read your comment. Yes, sometimes she wouid much rather skip the lecture. Sometimes she's even tried to rush him a little. That never works.
Hugs,
mouse
Thanks fury!
It is at times...probably for Daddy and mouse.
Hugs,
mouse
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