Welcome to December. As we drop head first into the big holiday season mouse found herself pondering control. What is it about Daddy's control, which to some might feel downright oppressive, is so incredibly intoxicating to mouse? It seems people are more than willing to give up limited control over lots of things everyday.
Even mouse at times blinks, sets up road blocks and yes even tries to snatch little portions of control from Daddy. It's probably human nature to do this. Sure,,at times she'll pout and bat her stubby eyelashes at him. When it works, she gets a little mental lift from it. That's just the illusion, because he knows full well what's going on.
A while back Daddy had mouse pick her punishment implement, he had her crawl to the wardrobe cabinet and pick the punishment device. As mouse recalled when she reached for a flogger with her hand, he swatted it away. The trick (or game) was she could take what she reach from her position and take into her mouth. This limited her options. As mouse recalls the cane was closest, the riding crop also within her reach and the leather strap, which mouse chose.
Now that was orchestrated carefully by Daddy. Any of those were fine by him, but the leather strap was the wild card in that and actually thought mouse would take the cane or crop, since they were closer. Let's be clear there wasn't really a choice, one had to be picked. He controlled the outcome to some degree and the punishment was most effective, even if he had to adjust how it was used. At rhe time the lesson for mouse, the one she took away from the experience was being accountable. Now, she sees it a little different, it was also an exercise in control. His finite control over the situation and over mouse. It's something mouse finds very comforting and even sexy, even if she hates it or thinks its a little wrong. It doesn't mean Daddy cannot make mistakes, but it does mean he's responsible for them. This control has led mouse from darkness to light.
How do you feel about control?
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His control makes me feel secure in my position. It often makes me happy as well. If I think it is ok to touch myself, because he allowed it or ordered it 15 minutes ago, and I do it again, and he slaps my hand away, it is so incredibly sexy. It is a very mild correction, barely a correction, and doesn't hurt my feelings, but it feels so good that he has taken that control over from me.
mouse,
Getting comfortable with the idea that my options are limited was (and still is) super difficult to get used to! Some people have always considered me an "independent spirit", which is a nice compliment but difficult to be in a TPE. It's so hard to just let go of this control I've had over my whole life and give it to someone else...with being a newbie it's hard to accept my place. And I asked for it! How did you get over that initial stubbornness? And how did Omega deal with that?
~Jasmine
Peace is the first word that comes to mind. Incredibly strong peace.
Control is what is what i crave...and at times what i fight. It calms me, reassures me, and pleases Him.....
hugs abby
Oh yes, mouse knows that feeling so very well. It's hot in that twisted subbie way. And it does feel good and right when they express it that way.
Daddy says he's still waiting for the stubbornness to stop in mouse.
Yes we want it, but all too often we attach strings to it, so that we feel comfortable. Eventually as trust grows you begin to cut the stings yourself.
Hugs,
mouse
YES!
Beautifully put and yes.
Hugs,
Mouse
How do I feel about control? Are we talking mine or his? LOL
Yeah, it's that love/hate relationship, isn't it? I want it, until he starts exercising more of it, then I don't like how constricting it feels. When we've gone through some slumps where the dynamic has waned (consistency issues), I miss his control and want it. When he gets back to taking it, it can feel weird. Yet I like it. Hmm....can you tell we still have quite a ways to go?
Hugs,
Sadie
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