Peering Through the Curtains

So many thoughts this morning and mouse isn't at all sure where to begin. As Daddy took more control over mouse, one thing she quickly realized was that it was freeing. This is something that's so difficult to explain. It's like being shown two cupcakes, both look amazingly delicious and being told you can only have one. You have to choose wisely. Each has its own elements you know you would love, but they're both different.

Then out of the blue, someone else happens along, and whispers to get the salted caramel, because the chocolate is a bit dry. There's this immediate feeling of relief. Of course you don't know if this stranger is really being helpful or wants to claim the chocolate one for themselves or is just tired of seeing you stare with uncertainty.

This is also the prime reason, Daddy almost always orders for mouse in restaurants. Because she invariably becomes "stuck" mentally between two or more items. Daddy cuts through the minutia or white noise of mouse's brain and relief sweeps over her. In our life, he guides mouse through the hidden mines, and solidly offers advice.

Daddy is often fond of saying a person's actions speak larger than words and sometimes mouse must agree he's right. Certainly his actions do speak much louder than his words! And mouse likes to think that her actions speak just as loudly -- especially where her family and close friends are concerned.

It's rather odd, how careful we are with what we share with others outside of our circles of trust. Very few people know of how mouse is with Daddy -- a few more might guess about how we live our lives but they would never outrightly ask. Here, mouse can be open about things involving that thing we do, it's like we open curtains but only when we are together. When our other family members or friends are present we close the curtains and obscure the view.

It's something mouse has deeply struggled with recently. When do open them and when do we decide to close them forever?