During the month of May, we've been doing a twice daily spanking. Each morning and evening mouse presents herself to Daddy and he warms her bottom usually with his hand. This has had a profound effect on mouse -- much less argumentative and well, less sarcastic. Sure there are moments of sarcasm, but even those are different. It's hard to explain. During this time, honestly mouse has felt more mentally settled -- despite being more busy than ever it seems. It's as though part of mind quieted down and just let things be. There's not this manic feeling of rushing anymore. Or trying to multitask out everything and instead allowing herself to go from one thing to the next with ease and without distractions.
Daddy had decided that in order to test his theory, we would go few weeks without spanking in June and this has actually left mouse more than a bit edgy. One might think that after so many days of daily spankings mouse would welcome a respite, but no; it's actually something she kinda fears. Last night, before Daddy spanked mouse was trembling and unloaded to him all these jumbled thoughts at once.
Sometimes she truly feels sorry for Daddy. Readers receive the filtered version of most events, while Daddy gets the full tsunami of emotions and for him it must be overwhelming if it's not expected. There are times he thoroughly anticipates it. That night found mouse begging, no pleading with him not to end the experiment. Or not to continue with it? That's a matter of perspective mouse supposes. The point was that there was a lot of pleading to Daddy not to stop the daily spankings or limit them in any way.
The pleading was driven by this distinct panic almost at the thought of it ending. Is it dependency? Or does she just enjoy the feelings spanking daily creates?
Does the daily spanking ritual thwart bad behavior?
There are more questions than answers at this point. Daddy is taking the idea under advisement.